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The cutest children. I still don't know how evil little cat thoughts are in their minds. Edit: They are BlackSoybean, Sun, NoseSpot and Blackberry. Actually, I also have two cats named Flower and Cola. My home is like a big cat house haha.

NEVER. I won't have children, and I can't even have a partner. Because I am unable to generate this feeling physiologically... This has resulted in me having no ability to handle such matters. But I am taking care of many little cats! This is like a little baby to me. I wouldn't mind helping others take care of their children - provided they are friendly. Another reason why I don't want children is that I am too impatient and unstable. I am afraid that my unfortunate experiences will repeat themselves for my children, so the best way is to end this possibility. I love my cat. Although they are so evil that they shock me. But they are just little cats. I have forgiven them. Even if they destroyed my countless breakfasts (oh no). I am happy to be a temporary caregiver and teacher for children. But if I were to raise or take long-term care of them... NO! I want to escape! (I take good care of my cats because they are very independent. I just can't perfectly take care of those who completely rely on my life, so having them is irresponsible for me.)

ow... I am struggling in the art collective training. But in fact, it's nothing. What really tormented me was my health. I once had a splitting headache that lasted for over a week, and I was afraid that I might be sick, so I went for a check-up. I don't have any serious physiological problems, except for old injuries all over my body and the sequelae of my right hand being injured, and my ankle still has torn ligaments. The problem lies in my mental state. I was diagnosed with depression, which went from severe to mild - which should have been good news - but later on, I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and schizophrenia. I am still struggling in pain, but this time it is not due to the external environment, but my body is constantly tormenting me. I have tried too many methods, including combining medication treatment, but the results have been very poor. Finally, the doctor told me that I had to be prepared for these terrible things that would always follow me... FOREVER. My joints are very painful, and so is my head, but the hospital is not working. It hurts every day. I have started having nightmares again, causing me to convulse, hallucinations, and insomnia. The scary thing is that I have 89 days left to prepare for an exam that will determine my life. During this period, I cannot show that I am overwhelmed... I am afraid that my teacher will give up on me because I am too weak, too prone to illness, and too exhausted. Even though I am actually the top student in the class. Actually, if I really want to carry these wounds with me for the rest of my life, it's not impossible... But if I have a choice, I still want to keep running, even once. After my leg was injured, I couldn't run well anymore. If I had a choice, I really wish I could have been smarter when I was a child and prevented some things from happening... My mother had her bones broken, my father was a sadist, my sister(older than me) also suffered from severe depression, and my younger siblings went crazy. My grandmother hated me because I was a girl and almost drowned me. Only me and my cat are still normal. Oh... if I had a choice, I would have run away before all of this happened when I was a child, instead of being disabled too! Edit: I messed up my first mock exam. But don't worry, it's not my fault. The whole school messed up this exam lol.

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I want to eat oysters. I've been thinking too much.

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It's been so long! I took a leave of absence from school, but after almost a year, I resumed my studies. During my year off from school, I experienced some very unpleasant things, including not being able to receive treatment and forced labor without compensation. I also went to the police station once for violently expelling intruders (who injured me, so I fought with them for self-protection purposes). Fortunately, they understood that I was only protecting myself, haha. Due to the lack of treatment, my poor physiological condition did not improve much. But during this process, I am truly grateful to my friends and my cats - they are currently in good condition! They look like round potatoes haha. With their company, I felt slightly better. Even though hallucinations, nightmares, and weakness still lingered around me, I at least regained my courage and perseverance to face them. Another interesting thing is that my right ankle ligament was torn, and the bones were also worn and even swollen. I endured pain for almost a year, and then the doctor told me it couldn't be treated (oh no). But when I told my teacher with the diagnosis that I was injured, he kindly allowed me not to participate in my daily running exercise (This terrifying exercise requires us to run 2400m non-stop every day). In a sense, it can be considered a blessing in disguise haha. My grades have improved by almost 100 points compared to before taking a leave of absence, which is another good thing. This means that I may be able to charge towards the art academy that I dreamed of as a child (which requires a minimum literature score of 440 and an art score of 240 or above). I will soon enter the art collective training! Actually, I am still very nervous because I have not been able to overcome social barriers and self-care issues, and my physical condition is still not very good, and I have not been able to establish good relationships with people around me... However, life has to continue no matter what. I will soon be able to escape from this nightmare like place. Escape from this terrifying village that has destroyed my physical and mental health.

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Thank you very much for your reply and give you a hug ( ˊ•̥▵•)੭₎₎ I'm glad you can recover from your negative state and stay optimistic. You are great! I may not be very good at speaking, because many times I always forget what I just said, or I cannot notice that the sentence components I write or say are incomplete. Please forgive me. orz (And I use a translator for communication, so sometimes it looks a bit strange?) When I am tired, I am enthusiastic about chatting with friends, playing small games such as mine sweeping and Sudoku, reading my favorite novels, and even creating. These can all help me temporarily relieve myself from the painful state, but sometimes I have to face it again and force myself to complete tasks when I am exhausted. In fact, looking at the five or six years of my torment, since I almost got killed by a nightmare in my sleep and felt so close to death for the first time, I have been unexpectedly more optimistic than ever before and grateful for the fact that I am still alive. This should have been a good thing, but just because I am optimistic, my current guardian has criticized all of my illnesses as laziness. When I try to save myself from pain, they criticize me, deny me, and even destroy my hard work, or use violent means to force me to complete what they want me to do. I tried to say that I couldn't do it because I was already exhausted and I was really working hard, but to no avail. If I cannot produce results, I am lazy and have no room for explanation. This leads to me being instantly filled with fear and anxiety as long as I stop and stop doing what I am trying to relieve myself. The fact is, I can't even do some of the simplest things in life. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I can't move. My soul and body are separated, so much so that my infinite anxiety begins to tear me apart from within. This is painful and ultimately leads to difficulty breathing, vomiting, and convulsions. But these physiological symptoms are not considered as symptoms of illness, they still consider me lazy. Perhaps I need to change my environment and escape this harmful atmosphere, and then I will feel better. I hope so, but when I return to school, I will once again face communication difficulties and campus bullying caused by physical and mental issues. Without medical assistance, there is no way to report to the police, and there is no time to gradually alleviate the situation. I hope I can hold on.

WARNING: disease & depression It has been some time since I left school due to illness, but in reality, I haven't been able to feel any improvement. I started taking antidepressants and worked hard to get myself moving, going for walks and sunbathing, and playing with my lovely cats. However, what makes me feel hopeless is that I am unable to salvage my physical condition. It feels like I'm stuck in a swamp, my body has been overdrawn, I can no longer muster energy, and I don't have the motivation to do everything I once loved. I still love them, but my body cannot move, my soul remains optimistic and passionate, active, but my body is slowly dying, almost rotting on the bed. I am starting to lose my memory and the ability to concentrate. I frequently experience hallucinations, so much so that when I recall my past, it becomes so unreal and uncertain. Even sometimes, I forget my name, forget my age, forget that I am still alive, forget that I am still awake. I only occasionally wake up and suddenly realize that I am not in a dream, feeling an unprecedented clarity of mind, and then unconsciously fall back into the swamp. I never thought depression would become so scary, but perhaps the good news is: I won't die easily, I hope I can survive, I hope I can recover my health. Even if I can't see hope and watch myself rot, I hope one day I can recover. I miss the time when I was still healthy.:(

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Happy birthday! These new dragons are really cool!!

I'm fine. Now I live alone with my cats. They can take care of themselves, so I won't be too busy. I need some time to adapt to loneliness, but at least my life is quieter

My trouble ended in a strange way. I'm an orphan now.

Thank you. I try my best to improve my sleep, and I really like creation and painting. Now I live with my cats. If my family doesn't persecute me, I think I will have a good time. The place where I live is really depressing. Because I am a girl, many people talk about letting me marry early, or how much money to buy me. There is no park here, and there is no place to relax, so I spend most of my time in my room and don't want to go out, because my family always pick out some thorns to trouble me. Some rude and unreasonable guests will come to my house to eat up what originally belongs to me and discuss how to kill my cats. I know how I became like this. I don't want anything now. My only wish is to spend the two years with my cats safely, and then go to college and stay away from my home. 。_。 Edit: I am very grateful to my friends. In fact, socializing and discussing things you like with like-minded people are good ways to relax. I just began to realize how painful it would be when I came back to reality, and I was afraid of being considered as "Internet addiction" by my family.

*Warning: death, stress, physical/mental illness* To be honest, I really don't know how to do it. I tried everything to make myself look optimistic and upward, to be a lovely girl in the prime of youth. But in fact, I am under great pressure. I am afraid that I may have stomach cancer or heart disease. The pain has tortured me for many years, but I have never been allowed to treat them. Everyone said that I just think too much. I am so young that I cannot have any problems, even if I fall in front of them because of the pain. I know that I may be powerless to my body, so I try to make myself optimistic and open to an imperfect self and life. But I was wrong again. I was under terrible learning pressure and domestic violence. Everything I did was almost to escape the current situation, so I worked hard to learn. But because of my mental illness and physical condition, it became more and more difficult. I know I'm no longer the genius when I was a child. I have created a lot of things and loved them with all my heart. They have become the backbone of my life, but also my biggest weakness. My mental illness has led to hallucinations. I have been fighting with those non-existent monsters endlessly. Until now, I am no longer afraid of them. hallucinations and pressure can not kill me, because I know I am stronger than them. But.. If it is sudden death? Cancer? Or any force majeure that I can never resist? I'm afraid of death. I'm afraid that everything I love will disappear after I die. I can't give them to others. If death suddenly comes, I may not have the opportunity to entrust everything I love to others. I really hope that I can live an ordinary life like other 16-year-old girls. They only need to worry about learning, feelings and appearance. But I am worried about my own death, and I have to worry about it. 。_。 Edit: I have tried medication, psychotherapy and legal aid. The doctor told me that I have depression, possibly schizophrenia or paranoia. Most of the time I am a normal ordinary person, but it is like an untimely bomb. I don't know when it will lead to despair, confusion, panic attacks, and sleep disorders. This has greatly affected my study and work efficiency, but in fact, I can overcome these difficulties! I said that I am stronger than them, but no matter how strong I am, the pain is still so painful that I am not recognized or even humiliated by my family.. 。_。 *Edit(2): I got sick because of the dirty water, and I felt so bad, but my family refuted all my feelings. Now I lie in bed and try to suppress this discomfort. I don't know what it is, like blood flowing out of my nose and mouth, or just because I am out of mind. I will go to school soon, and then I can't go home for several days. I'm afraid. Edit(3): I love my kitten. He is always patient with me and loves me in his own way. And, give everyone a hug and hope that your life will be better and better and you will be happier and happier.

Cat or any small furry animal (Except caterpillars). And various arthropods, especially spiders In the case of fantasy creatures, they are Dragons, or highly intelligent creatures similar to cats with bat wings and jointed legs, which are super beautiful and charming. I really like those dangerous predators. They are beautiful in every sense. XvX But I'm afraid of worms. XAX ------ Fortunately, I have about five cats and a dog. They are really naughty-- XP

So I can reasonably suspect that she was ignored because she was treated as spam. (?

siiftun1857, I inquired about her topic content and deleted the Github off-site link she chained in (I'm not sure if it will affect). Now I'm waiting for the review of mods. x-x

Some of my friends sent Topic in "Introduce yourself", then we waited and waited. At first, I thought that mods might have rested (because we were in China, with jet lag), but we waited for almost a whole day and didn't get a reply. There was no notice that we might have violated the rules or what, and it was not passed. And we watched others' topic being passed, but we made no progress. I feel strange. What may be the reason for this? Did she not successfully publish her topic or did too many new topics bury her? What should we do now? Should she try to publish a topic again at "introduce yourself"? ;-;