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  1. @Daydreamer09 Yeah. 🙃 And it's not like I never read, it just feels like a choir to have to picture everything in my head and my reading speed isn't great either. I greatly prefer reading webcomics when I do read for fun.

     

    @Fuzzbucket I definitely don't force myself, but it's still seemingly difficult for me to even start reading something that does peak my interest. The only series I've ever become invested in is City of Ember, and even then I find my interest has waned quite a bit with the second and third book. I'm actually kind of surprised I even read three of the four.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯


  2. Back when I was really little I was slower than my peers in school when it came to learning how to read and would much rather watch TV or play computer games. I only took books out of the library for the colourful pictures and I don't remember actually reading them. I think this was made worse by the fact that my dad noticed this and forced me to read. He'd then question me afterwards so he knew I wasn't just pretending.
    Even today I almost never read for pleasure and I don't really understand why some people like books so much (other than for learning purposes of course) when there's so many other forms of entertainment.

    For the record I don't have dyslexia, but I probably have mild ADHD.

     

    Anyone else have a similar experience?


  3. I'm only posting this here to conceptualize when I'm going through emotionally rn because I'm asking myself more often than not these days if some of my feelings towards my dad even make sense. I don't expect anyone to read it but kudos to you if you do!

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    My dad came from a broken home and for as long as I can remember he's always been very difficult to get along with. I only know how to describe him as emotionally abusive and angry person who dosn't really know how to show that he cares. Some examples of this are blowing up in my face over extremely trivial things (like how he yelled at me and threw my lunchbox across the room when I was in 5th grade, simply because I didn't eat my lunch), belittling me for my acne in high school, threatening to replace my bedroom door with a curtain cause I wouldn't let him in, calling my younger brother stupid to my mother's face (he was both mentally and physically handicapped and has since passed away.), calling me a little baby for telling my mom why he upset me, and the list goes on. He has NEVER been physically abusive and I think that might be at least partially why it's difficult for him to understand how he could possibly be hurting me and my mom. As a result of all this I've increasingly grown repulsed by him, but sometimes we still talk about stuff we're interested in when he's in a stable mood because I've been trying to keep some peace between us since I don't really have a choice right now but to live under the same roof as him. He's also never been in great health since he was a kid, getting sick all time and becoming disabled as a result (I think he also said at one point that he has PTSD from his childhood but I'm not 100% certain), so I can understand where some of his anger comes from in that regard, but that's never given him ANY excuse to bring down everyone around him just because he's feeling miserable, and he's always been that way..... taking it out on me and my mom and acting like he's the victim.

     

    But today, I've decided I'm no longer going to pretend like the 2 of us are "ok" and have causal chats anymore. His health has been deteriorating these past few weeks and he keeps falling, sometimes unable to get up, which of course makes him even more pissed. Just yesterday he claimed that me and my mom were being abusive with virtually no argument to back it up other then we were coming off as passive aggressive and didn't respond to him immediately (?????). He has a history of being a hypocrite, but I feel like he's really crossing the line now, especially after he told my mom to shut up and  "You don't know what you're talking about!" when she backed my claims while he was getting angry with me. Then he turns around and says that I don't respect him enough??? (I mean I've said things I'm not proud of but at least I apologize when I realize I've hurt someone).

     

    I'm just so tired of him acting like he's always right and losing his cool when he realizes he dosn't have control over us. But he's also been there for me many times in my life even if he does come across as overbearing, and it's not like my childhood was traumatic because of him. I've read many posts from people with abusive parents explaining how their dads would hit them, were alcoholics or drug addicts etc. and while I DO know that just because some people having it worse than me dosn't invalidate my feelings, I still wonder if I'm being too harsh sometimes. Was I right to call him emotionally abusive and have him lecture me about how I apparently "don't know what real abuse is"? Am I right to still be angry about things he's said and done years ago because he dosn't seem to have improved since, or am I just holding on to old grudges and letting it fuel my resentment? And most of all, am I right to feel that I don't love him and be completely numb towards the idea that he might die soon, despite all the things he's done for me growing up? I'm just............so tired.


  4. Anyone here play AC Pocket Camp? I need a friend who I can swap creatures back-and-forth with during gardening events. If you're like me, you've got WAY too many bell maps just sitting there and you can never seem to get enough friend powder to complete them.


  5. Anyone know if Zombie's can turn into Vampires on the "bad" side of the board, like how the GoN's can spawn there? So far it seems none of my Vampires have successfully turned a Zombie and it might be because I've been putting them on the frontlines.


  6. I was going through some files on my computer and came across a couple of DC screenshots I took a long time ago, so I thought I'd put them here if anyone finds them interesting.

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    A glitch during the Brewing Mischief event. Pranking one of my gold dragons turned it into an old gold egg sprite instead of the new one which had been recently implemented at the time along with the other new gold sprites.

     

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    From the Dragons & Flowers event. Nothing unusual here, but I had to take this screenshot when I realized that the Gaia and Garland sprites are doing exactly what the Sunsong said they were. If you talk to the Sunsong after receiving all 3 flowers they say "Sorry, but that I think that Gaia just whispered to the Garland! I bet he told her he loves her!"

     

    I could've sworn I had a screenshot of a glitch from the contagion event, but I think I deleted it by accident. Oh well, maybe someday I'll find it.


  7. @prpldrgnfr You're absolutely right that his depression isn't my problem. I guess I was just worried that I was overreacting so thanks for the reassurance! @Terces I've been keeping contact with him to a minimum like you suggested, but he recently texted me asking when I wanted to hang out next so I texted him earlier today that I was busy and would get back to him soon, and just now finally told him that what he said made me uncomfortable. He responded by saying he asked me about experimenting cause he apparently brought it up before months ago and I had said I'd think about it (which I honestly don't remember, but I guess he had been super vague at the time because I know I would've said no if he had suggested we do anything sexual). He then ended his text saying that he just learned about something devastating that happened to his best friend today and had to go... so I know he's going to be super depressed again, possibly suicidal, and likely not talk to me for a while. I can't help but feel concerned for him even though I probably shouldn't...


  8. (I'm not sure if this is right place to post this sort of thing, so if not please redirect me :))

     

    Does anyone have any advice on how to handle a socially awkward situation involving a friend who wants to, shall we say, "experiment" without feelings for eachother? I have a friend who's a super nice guy and always asks if it's ok with me before doing something like putting his arm around my shoulder while watching a movie, but he recently asked if I wanted to get more hands-on and it really weirded me out.

    Since day 1 he hasn't hidden the fact that he's been hands-on with a few of his friends and makes out with them on occasion and I thought I made it clear that I wouldn't do anything like that with someone who I wasn't dating, but he recently texted me asking if I wanted to take things a step further, saying it might be fun because "it's not like we're having sex" (even though what he suggested was sexual in nature). If I weren't afraid of upsetting him due to him having depression and him saying that I'm one of the nicest people he knows I probably would've told him flat out that he was making me super uncomfortable and that I didn't want to hang out with him as a result, but instead I just said that I wasn't looking for that kind of relationship and he said he was ok with that.

    I've only really known him since late December and there were a few months of complete silence on his end due to him dealing with depression and family drama, so now I'm beginning to wonder if he possibly lied about experimenting with his other friends since I've never met them and I'm not sure how I feel about being alone with him in his room to play video games and watch movies anymore because it's clear that we have VERY different ideas about what's too intimate between friends, even though he respects my boundaries (like holding hands is too intimate for him, but he's fine with french kissing???). I just don't know how to approach this like an adult without it being super awkward.... or maybe I should just forget about him completely until he texts me asking why I went quiet all the sudden.


  9. I'm a little disappointed that I can't replay since people keep mentioning something about a horse that I never encountered and I'd imagine that dating the spider would be hilarious, but it was really frustrating that some commands had to be really specific with no hints what so ever, like typing "Chop tree with axe" instead of "Chop tree" (which I wouldn't have figured out had I not checked this thread. I didn't know you could use prepositions).

     

    I'd like to do it again next year to find out what happens with my date, but I hope we'll at least be given hints next time.


  10. As much as I'd like to continue this, SuperfluousBear, you may have noticed by now that the RP has come to a halt. I'm still open to trying again IF we can rekindle people's interest, but I have yet to hear back from Skwerl or LLD (or anyone for that matter) so I doubt it'll happen.


  11. As much as I'd like to get more furniture, all the tasks are freezing on me now (even after clearing the cache) and the stuff already in my house rotates when I leave and come back. I might try again in the morning, but I think I'm done for now rather than letting myself get frustrated over it.

     

    To those of you that wanted to see, here is an image album of character art and some basic character information.

    (I figure Imgur is better to use than Deviantart for this...)

    Wow. You have a new follower, birdz. <3


  12. I just knew we were getting Vakemare Tales again this year! I don't know if these have been reported yet, but here are some issues I've run into that will hopefully be resolved.

    • When trying to find Patches, the message kept popping up every time I moved. I had to restart from Nulhora because of this.
    • The Magi Plush disappeared from my inventory after trying to place it on the ground.
    • Some missing dialog from a few town folk.
    The game is really well put together despite the glitches. Keep up the good work DC team. happy.gif

  13. Yeah, that could work. I get that there aren't a lot of active roleplayers on DC, but at the time I was thinking that we would only invite someone if we were low on players and they would have to be fairly regular on the forums (like a level 5 or higher).

     

    If you and Skwerl think the 7 day "test" might be worth a shot then I'll send PM's to those still signed on.

     

    So um... want me to post? Or am I out?

    You can if you want, but don't expect a reply from anyone quite yet. We might do a time skip once we know how many people are still interested.


  14. I suppose I could PM the few who I think are still interested, but then I think we'd have to be a lot more strict about who we can accept from now on.

     

    Aside from those already signed up, what if only those invited by an approver can join? Or would that be too limiting?


  15. I could try, not sure how often I could post, but I could try.

     

    But your right, with all the people who have signed up, its.... very odd that its so dead.

    I guess it might be possible without you rejoining since there are still a few people wanting to continue, but doing a 1x2 means everyone would have to really be committed from now on or we could easily fall into endless limbo thanks to one person.

     

    I feel like this could have possibly been avoided if people actually asked for help when stuck. I'm happy to throw ideas at you if you ask, and I've said this multiple times here before, but one or more people will just stay quiet while the rest of us wait like they assume it won't have an impact (and then finally speak up when I PM them. Like, really?). Or they wait an extremely long time before finally saying "I'm stuck" and just leave it at that like that somehow makes up for the fact that you left us hanging for so long. And I admit that I'm guilty of having made people wait for longer than they should, but at least I keep everyone up to date about why I'm absent and say when I should be back.

     

    If you don't care enough to post regularly then DON'T JOIN! It's really not that hard to understand.

    /end of rant