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Ruffledfeathers

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  1. I am at a loss right now. I grew up with two people who should have never been parents. One was neglectful, and blows up at any criticism, I never got taught key things growing up and am now extremely scared of confrontation. I learnt most life skills through parents of friends, or on my own accord. The other was emotionally and physically abusive, but had times of niceness where we bonded. I have forgiven both, but have very little connection to either, as the one I did bond with even a little ran away. I still remember asking when they would come back, just not knowing why they were gone. The other parent ran away a lot, threatening suicide, but always came back. Or was found, I really dont know. I guess I didnt think it could be different for them, it was the first and last time they went away for reasons outside of long working hours. They are both mostly strangers to me, which is odd when you live with one of them. I feel like an orphan, as my siblings were essentially my parents. Now, I am stuck in quarantine with one parent and a few siblings. Of course, one sibling I was close to. They were experiencing problems, and thus I sought to be there for them. But, they are becoming just like dad. And I fear that I am their target; they were one sibling who basically helped raise me. My suspicion started when I confessed that the bad upbringing was causing me mental problems. But, when I started talking, they cut me off to say that I was in a relationship, thus I can work those out. And that their issues were worse. I get that they are bitter that I got it ‘better’ than them. But they forget that I too had things thrown at me, fingers slammed, and was screamed at for things a normal kid does. So for then I bit my tongue. This happened multiple times. I found myself really sleepy, barely able to concentrate on work after hanging with them. The main event was what caused me to back away from them fully. I was in a position where I couldnt go anywhere. And they keep insisting that I put myself in that position. It was normally ok, even pleasant. Due to the current world situation, I have made a rule that I dont wish to discuss it unless its important. And its been stuck to, mostly. They say, “oh you wont see your bf for ages. Probably the longest time you will not see them for.” I gently remind them of the rule, then they stop. Next time, they bring it up again. Now, that alone is upsetting. But when they do, and I retaliate saying again it puts me in needless stress and sadness, they say “aw your sad.” In a weird mocking tone. And smile. That smile, to me was sinister. They are getting a kick out of me suffering. Clearly. I dont know what to do aside not talk to them. But its not that easy. They have noticed that I pulled away, and keep trying to talk. I really dont wanna buy what they are selling. My trust and respect died because they didnt respect my wishes. Its really damn easy to just not say something! Especially if you know it will hurt someone needlessly. And yes this is needless, they just said it for the sake of it. And I told them not to do that once before. Even if they wanted to make sure I was ok, they could have just said I am worried about you is everything ok. They have asked in a nice way before, so its not like they dont know how. I just feel like I cant trust them anymore. They dont respect me. And idk if I am kooky for thinking that way over this. Now I worry for myself as the lockdown just never seems to end, as well as them. Their mental health is poor, and I fear that if I continue to stay away, they will do something. But if I talk, they will act like this again. I fear if I tell them, it will just feed this behaviour, like it did before. I kinda feel like I am going crazy, because it feels like I am maybe interpreting this wrong. They are usually so fun and nice. But then get all like this. Its killing me inside because I love them and I want to trust them. But I really dont know what to do, who to tell or even how.
  2. Someone I am with in quarantine has such a negative attitude. Its starting to really bring me down. And when I have issues, thats nothing compared to theirs because I have a loving boyfriend. He is amazing and I am darned lucky, dont get me wrong, but that doesnt invalidate the mental problems I am experiencing. Also, they seem secretly happy when I get upset that I cant see him. I want to be close to them, but this negativity is killing me.
  3. Have: CB royal blue with cute code KesSy https://dragcave.net/lineage/KesSy Want: Other interesting codes, cool offers. Please PM or offer using trade link below: https://dragcave.net/teleport/0fd64e7feb3bd911b2c87bd5d4895756 Thanks
  4. One of my friends cats (rest her soul) killed and left a dead frog behind their telly once. They didnt find it for months…
  5. I only got Xols or refusals, no fair I tried a Kohraki: https://dragcave.net/progeny/hrbr5 A bronze shim: https://dragcave.net/progeny/lyYbo Stripe: https://dragcave.net/progeny/ET6EO Tried my silver tin but got a darned refusal 😠
  6. A bit confused but somehow got the wrong egg from the volcano biome. Maybe I misclicked, idk I was on mobile, waited the 5 min refresh to pick up a new cozy egg. Clicked it and the page lagged, maybe it somehow refreshed instead? It already loaded by this point, it only went weird when I clicked the egg. Idk, because I definitely didnt click the wrong egg, I did it twice thinking the phone didnt register it, somehow ended up with a red! I was wondering where my cozy one was I didnt get him tho, never mind a red is fine by me.
  7. Whoops! Messy and inbred are interchangeable in my mind sometimes This guy is a better example: https://dragcave.net/lineage/hje28
  8. What I do with them depends on a few things. Does it have a cool code? If so I may keep it. If its around the holidays, or I have used up my kills and am bored, I will try to vamp them. I have now built a mini tradition to vamp inbred holiday eggs which I keep accidentally picking up its part of a story which I need to write up. This one being a more recent example: https://dragcave.net/view/vqq13
  9. Have: A CB harvest dragon who is a v4xer! (Vaxer if you take 4 for a). https://dragcave.net/lineage/v4Xer Manol the CB horse: https://dragcave.net/view/MANol Want: Other cool codes, particularly ones similar to bricks, or clip. And anything which fits nicely code and lineage wise with the dragons from this group (the two 4 letter codes I will not look for mates for as their lines are awful!): https://dragcave.net/group/79143/2,0,12 I am a fan of name or name sounding codes as well Please PM for any offers as of now, as the eggs are not off cooldown. If your interested in something growing on my scroll, let me know.
  10. AHH! Blimming blue moon of a chance green copper and instead of the egg, I decide to click on the one right next to it END ME! Now Im stuck with this misrable pile of broken dreams and missed opportunities https://dragcave.net/lineage/HsX3B
  11. That is what I refer to. I wish they considered it based on how people acted on Mothers day 😕 Id rather be stuck for a month with no outside time than the whole year being separated from everyone because sUmMeR pArTiEs are more important.
  12. It seems to be inevitable that peoples idiocy will ruin what little freedoms we have left. Why not just jump to a fullblown lock down. Theres always going to be idiots who dont listen who will take away the privileges and ruin things for everyone. So just cut to the chase and do it already; only shopping no exercise. It will speed things up in the long run. Im done with this, other people being so stupid and ruining everything for everyone. Why even give them a chance? They were never going to listen. If caught, harsher measures should be taken rather then just telling them to leave. Thats no incentive to stop to someone who has such little care about anyone else. No fines, thats not enough. House arrest. A tracking tag which beeps if they leave. Then they get sent to jail for many, many years. And a special billboard with their face saying how little they cared about everyone else. Criminals with ASBOS get that treatment they should be treated as such because they are those kind criminals. This seems angry and cinical. I am. Its time the government realise that, as long as these idiots are free to roam with very little consequence to them, there will be no improvement. Harsh treatment for less long. Or harsh punishment for those who break the rules. There is no other way. I am so done with these idiots who think that SUNBATHING in massive groups is exercise.
  13. Have: all number code EG 3G almerald from anarsi https://dragcave.net/lineage/59897 Want: CB green nebula, or dragons which make perfect, unrelated mates for dragons in any of the below groups (for normal dragons from holidays, I would rather have the holiday, not another normal dragon x holiday). Normal Dragons Needing Mates: https://dragcave.net/group/109609 Dragons with holidays/holiday dragons needing mates: https://dragcave.net/group/118682 Dragons which can only have mates bred at certain times group: https://dragcave.net/group/118687 Thanks!
  14. I will try, I dont have many good ones to breed though.
  15. Got a micheal jackson fools egg, it has hehe in the code
  16. Thank you anon for this pretty! https://dragcave.net/lineage/sL353
  17. You can put a background on zoom, including photos! So you need not be embarrassed, a colleague used a teletubby background once!
  18. That does look good, thanks!
  19. So tired of idiots making things worse I cant see my bf till God knows when cuz Jerry and friends thought sPrInG bReAk was more important than everyone’s health.
  20. I personally prefer the bottom one an alt in there could look really cool as well. Does anyone know any good pairs for mints, siyats, purple dorsals and male ridgebacks? I really struggle to pair these breeds!
  21. @Fly-by-Night Glad you like it I can always try again for the right colour if you want
  22. I think its one of TJs special eggs, never hatches I dont think.
  23. I do recall, when CB prizes were very limited, that people asked for olives for their offspring? Was there a reason for this? I used to be very on and off back then, coming back I was always so confused by it