I don't want to audition for gbyo or western regions or any other orchestra. You have to understand, my family has no extra cash to spend on something like music. The musical financial support got me an expensive violin, and pay for my strings, and the lessons you give me, so how will I come up with the money to audition? $20 for one to audition, and then $500 just to join the begginer orchestra. $600 or more for the orchestras I can get into. and the other one, I can't even pay $20 for my strings, how the hell do you think i'm gonna be able pay $50 just to audition for a top notch orchestra that I probably wont get into. you know who gets in those places? Rich kids, well off, financially secure, kids who have been getting violin lessons since they were two. Kids who practice 4+ hours a day who's family all plays an instrument. Not kids like me who've played for barely 4 years and only had private lessons for one of them. Not kids like me who come from one of the most dangerous, broke, and worst rated city in town. thats why i wont play as hard as you want me to. maybe you'll think that i'm not good enough to audition. maybe you'll think im lazy and suck and cancel my lessons scholarship. that would be good. you'll open up some time for a kid who actually has a chance. someone who does exactely what I do, maybe even less, but lives in your rich side of the state, with loaded parents. she'll succeed, not me.